Finally!

I finally have a date for my surgery - June 6th. I am looking forward to it. But, I am also quite anxious. Anxious about leaving my babies for six weeks or more. I work at a child care centre and I love, love, love the children I care for. I worry about them when I am not there. I know the other staff will take care of them, but not in the same way as me. They love me the best and I am not ashamed to admit it. I have a special bond with each and every one of my babies. I love the way their faces light up when I walk into the room and the way they reach their arms up to me for a cuddle. Sometimes I have to figure out how to fit five little toddlers comfortably on my lap! On these occasions my stretched out legs become a boat and I sing "Row Row Row Your Boat". Therefore, it is with mixed feelings that I psyche myself up for the surgery that could mean I get one step closer to fulfilling my dream of becoming a Mum.

New Year, New Hopes

Well...it's the start of a new year. Hopefully it will be a good one. I am hoping this year is the year that brings me one step closer to reaching my dream of becoming a mother. I am currently on the public waiting list to have an operation to remove fibroids from my uterus. I am hoping that the operation will happen in March. My twin sister is almost fully recovered from her fibroids operation. I am hoping that this will be her year.

I start work again on Monday. A new year in child care, lots of new little people to meet. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I love meeting all the new little babies, but it can also be very stressful when they are first settling in as they often miss their Mums and Dads so much. I am hoping that this year will be full of fun and laughter and not too many tears.

First Post

My first post...and I really have no idea what to write. I have no idea what this blog is about. Um, my life, I suppose! I am almost 33, but still feel like I am in my teens. I don't think I've figured life out yet. I try to be a nice person, some tell me I am too nice. I love my sister and I love my partner. It takes me a long time to make friends. I am shy and I am anxious around people I don't know or trust. I love craft, especially crochet, cross-stitch and sewing. Craft keeps me sane. I work in child care and love children. I have always wanted to be a mother. I have fibroids in my uterus and am on the waiting list to get them removed. I am obsessed with buying baby clothes even though I don't need them.

Me and my awesome sister Lisa